|wow...it's been a really long time
||[Feb. 26th, 2005|10:29 pm]
hmm, hi again. How long has it been...since august...september, october, november, december, january, february...around 6 months. Since then, my life has completely changed...here goes, bear with me.
I student taught...had a really great time, i loved my students and they thought i was awesome...however, for the first couple of weeks, i was always late by a minute or two...because of that, i didn't get the grade i needed to graduate...so i am transferring to Northern Iowa next fall...all because the new director is a dick. Yeah, i apologized for my tardiness, but i was never late for class, i was always prepared, and there were times when i bailed my teacher out of a jam because he had conferences to go to, so i took his place for a couple days. There were even times that he was late...i did jazz band, two periods of lessons before he even got there...so explain that to me...i'm the one spending 8 grand to do this...why must i be punished??
So yeah, i'm transferring, i'll get my bach of composition degree up there and then go on to grad school.
Relationship wise...ellen and i started dating again...but after five months, she decides to tell me that she'll never want to marry me and breaks up with me...i never proposed and i guess she's been thinking about this ever since we got back together...then i met this girl jen right after ellen broke up with me. We spent a delightful week together, hanging out and getting to know each other...i stayed up till 5 in the morning with her because she got a flat tire...she made me dinner for my birthday in between her shifts at her 2 jobs...we kissed (but with no tongue...i thought it was a little odd)...and she tells me that she doesn't want to be in a relationship...now, why would you do these things if you didn't want to be in a relationship...why can't they tell me these things when they should...it would be easier on my heart and feelings, eh?
So now that my life has turned to shambles, there really hasn't been anything for me to cling onto to keep me with reality...friends help, but not always. I was reading my last entries and how i bitched at my townhouse...i don't even remember that anymore...i get along with all of them now, it's really cool...i just was so busy and out of place last semester i guess...anyways...who knows when i'll update again, but i'll be around again...hopefully.