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Kyle

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[Jun. 19th, 2005|03:41 pm]
Kyle
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i feel like total shit now. I guess i should have assumed she had a boyfriend, but once i heard those words, it was like a dagger going through my heart. All life just died right there. I just got so angry. She seriously is the perfect girl...she has the same loves as i do, she can drink guiness and mostly any beer...she is absolutely the girl i want to be with. I can tell her anything and i know she'll get me. I've never really understood why she always broke up with me, but i never cared. I always looked at it like a "boy meets world" thing, minus the whole "knowing each other since we were 4" thing. I have this gut feeling like i should be with her...but i can't get her to be with me.

If she won't love me, how can i get anyone else to love me...i don't know anymore...

I got offered the job in columbia for 3 weeks...don't know if i want to go anymore...i told her that i want to go just to see the town...but it was really to see her...but it'll be when she's here...

I started bartending, i love it, good money, good atmosphere, get to stay busy...

i just wish i was happier...
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From: damightyzug
2005-06-20 01:40 pm (UTC)
Chill out man. It always works out in the end. get a leave of absence from your bartending gig and take this 3 week job in Columbia (unless that's the SA Columbia, in that case stay away)

Use this as a chance for experience and move along. Don't allow you’re self to get hung up on such things. That stuff can take it's toll on a man quicker than any thing else.
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From: geeks_boyfriend
2005-06-21 06:33 am (UTC)
He's right!
Don't get hung up on a woman...or else you'll end up 30 years old, living with your parents, with no career, and a child that calls some other asshole daddy!

All you can do is tell her exactly how you feel, what you need from her and ask her if she's on board with that.

If not, walk away and don't ever look back!!

It will hurt. Have some beers with your friends or your brother, get drunk, cry, make an ass out of yourself, throw up, go to sleep and then push it down and go on.


It sucks and I'm sorry.
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